My healthy journey begins

Scabs and Scars

I have never been one to think I had much of a testimony. However in the last few weeks I have come to see we all have a testimony and some way that our life has been touched by the work of God. Mine came about in the form of scabs. Scabs you may say? As a friend and fellow blogger posted on Facebook...."Scabs are gross". However scabs can pretty awesome to.

A few weeks ago I was in a car accident. The car rolled, hit a tree, knocked me out, threw me from the front drivers side to the back passenger side, broke every piece of glass in the vehicle and knocked me out. Much less worse accidents have killed people. I was very blessed though...I escaped with lots of bruises, a sore body, and hand that looked like it belonged to Frankenstien. There were 27 stiches and enough tape and glue in there to complete more than a few school projects. If I wasn't hand model material before I certainly would never be now.

However I am so proud of that hand. Everytime I look at my hand now I am given a constant and visual reminder of God's love and protection for me. People told me after the accident "God has great plans for you" but I think the accident was his plan. A wake-up call and a lasting reminder of his love and forgivness. Not only that but that God is always with us. I will never be able to look at my hand without thinking of Jesus's hand and the scabs and scars he carried from those nails. The nails he took and the suffering he bore for me . Someone that has often struggled with my unworthiness to receive such love.

So yes Scabs and even scars might be considered "GROSS" but they can also be pretty "AWESOME".

Need vs Greed

I read the following quote this morning....

"There is suffiancy in this world for man's need but not for man's greed."
------Ghandi

What an amazing statement that says about so many things in our world today. The economic crisis we see our in. The destroying of our natural beauty. It is all a result of our greed. However, I do believe that EVERY person in the world is guilty of this greed. It is time we release the greed and focus on what it is we really need. In the coming year I hope to make everyday an Earth Day, and futhermore, a day of need only in America.

Let's take back America...starting with ME!!!

Happy Valentine's Day

Wow the day of love. I can truly say that I have had a wonderful day and have felt relaxed and love. However as my girls get older I miss the goodie bags and valentine's that we did every year. I always thought I loved the school parties more than they did. Tonight I am headed to the symphony. I am excited because I will be trying my hand at tablescaping for the first time. It is exciting to be trying something new. However I am sad because my sweet husband and I will be away from each other for awhile. He is in the local Jazz Orchestra and they are playing a gig. So I will be enjoying an evening alone with good friends and anxiously awaiting the chance to go an see him play. I look forward to showing pictures of the event tomorrow.

Depression

I have for years struggled with depression. I think that when I get very stressed out my body deals with the stress by shutting down and anything negative or upsetting just makes me want to crawl in the bed under the covers and shut down. I have been in this struggle lately. I often wonder during these times where my God is? I also wonder at these times if I am even good enough to call him "My God"? I know this is true and that God will never leave me or forsake me. What is happening is an attack of faith. God doesn't promise all blue skies and rainbows and what I need to remember is that he will never leave me or forsake me. Like he would never leave or forsake anyone else.

Do they...or Don't they

My family says "when they read this blog they see a diffrent me". I think they aren't seeing a diffrent me just seeing the one that at home is busy taking care of all the things that need to be taken care of. Giving (and receiving instruction), listening to the never ending list of needs, and wants, and since they think they know it all, being told what I am doing wrong. So NO I am not a diffrent person on this blog I am just me and with no one to tell me what I should or shouldn't say I can say it all. So while my family thinks I am just a diffrent person my prayer is that they will really just see me...not wife, not mom, not anyone but me.

A Little Obsessed

I have a little secret to share. These past few months I have been very interested in all things Obama, but NOT Barack. I am so enthralled with two cute young ladies, Sasha and Malia. I think they are a VERY BRIGHT spot in what was an other wise disappointing election for me. I thought this picture of our first daughters said it all.... Pride, Joy, Excitment and YOUTH. What fun the next four (or maybe eight) years will be. However, I believe that we has America need to respect that they are children. They need to have room to grow, flourish, and experience life. So while there experiences maybe different then most kids there age, they have to experience them just the same. However I do think I will be looking for me some Marvelous Malia and Simply Sasha Dolls. Just has a reminder of my little obsession.