Happy Valentine's Day

Wow the day of love. I can truly say that I have had a wonderful day and have felt relaxed and love. However as my girls get older I miss the goodie bags and valentine's that we did every year. I always thought I loved the school parties more than they did. Tonight I am headed to the symphony. I am excited because I will be trying my hand at tablescaping for the first time. It is exciting to be trying something new. However I am sad because my sweet husband and I will be away from each other for awhile. He is in the local Jazz Orchestra and they are playing a gig. So I will be enjoying an evening alone with good friends and anxiously awaiting the chance to go an see him play. I look forward to showing pictures of the event tomorrow.

Depression

I have for years struggled with depression. I think that when I get very stressed out my body deals with the stress by shutting down and anything negative or upsetting just makes me want to crawl in the bed under the covers and shut down. I have been in this struggle lately. I often wonder during these times where my God is? I also wonder at these times if I am even good enough to call him "My God"? I know this is true and that God will never leave me or forsake me. What is happening is an attack of faith. God doesn't promise all blue skies and rainbows and what I need to remember is that he will never leave me or forsake me. Like he would never leave or forsake anyone else.

Do they...or Don't they

My family says "when they read this blog they see a diffrent me". I think they aren't seeing a diffrent me just seeing the one that at home is busy taking care of all the things that need to be taken care of. Giving (and receiving instruction), listening to the never ending list of needs, and wants, and since they think they know it all, being told what I am doing wrong. So NO I am not a diffrent person on this blog I am just me and with no one to tell me what I should or shouldn't say I can say it all. So while my family thinks I am just a diffrent person my prayer is that they will really just see me...not wife, not mom, not anyone but me.

A Little Obsessed

I have a little secret to share. These past few months I have been very interested in all things Obama, but NOT Barack. I am so enthralled with two cute young ladies, Sasha and Malia. I think they are a VERY BRIGHT spot in what was an other wise disappointing election for me. I thought this picture of our first daughters said it all.... Pride, Joy, Excitment and YOUTH. What fun the next four (or maybe eight) years will be. However, I believe that we has America need to respect that they are children. They need to have room to grow, flourish, and experience life. So while there experiences maybe different then most kids there age, they have to experience them just the same. However I do think I will be looking for me some Marvelous Malia and Simply Sasha Dolls. Just has a reminder of my little obsession.

The Fruit of the Day is STILL Peace and Joy

I am still working on this Peace and Joy thing. It has been a long hard week but I do see some true blessings about to come. So I will keep pruning in my vineyard and praying for directions.

CHANGE

During the election we heard alot about CHANGE. I was often quoted as saying "Change I got....give me Experience." Well I didn't get the experience I got the change and I am going to proudly support him and this nation. I am a big believer in God has a plan. It may not be our plan and we may think we don't like but it is HIS PLAN and I will go with it. These past few days have seen lots of CHANGES in our nation and I think it showed what we as America do best. Celebrate, Revere, and Honor are leaders, our history and our future.

The Bible tells us this:

rooted and built up in him, strengthened in the faith as you were taught, and overflowing with thankfulness.

Colossians 2:7

So I will have Faith in God's plan of CHANGE and support the person that was in God's plan to lead us. I will pray unceasingly for him and will endeavor to support him. I may not always agree but I am keeping my eyes on the bigger CHANGE, the day my Lord and Savior Jesus Christ comes.

The FIRST Check

Emily has a job. She is working at Chic-Fil-A on Vann Dr in Jackson. I am so excited about this. I am even more excited this weekend because she got her FIRST check. We are so proud of her and hopefully, someday soon, she will allow us to eat there when she is working. However I am praying that she likes her job, learns the value of a dollar, and is thankful that she gets to work for a Godly company.